adding insults to injuries

start of 2009 has already been so bad, even up till now.

too many things have proven me that my 2009 wouldn't be that pleasant.

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digress first.

i really cannot understand why the heck ask IF you have your own way of doing already? then if my ans isn't what you wanna hear, then you heck it totally and do it your own way.

maybe you don't know but it makes me feel like i'm so insignificant and my words are nothing at all. you don't treat it with a bit of respect at all. you totally ignore them and insist what you wanted.

this is hurtful. and i know i will never ever do this to you. not once, or twice like you did.

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sigh.

i'm on the verge of crying alr.

not because of the above digression.

but my 2009 is so bad. its just feb and its alr so bad.

i'm so tired of all these shits.

fyp predicted grade is out. i'm so disappointed with it.

should i expect that kind of result or i deserve something better with the work i've given? i don't know. who are they to judge our grades?

through presentations? reports? some brisk meeting ups with us only? is that so? are there any unfairness, non credits to people or biasness? up to this point, i have so much to say but what help will it do? it will only make it like i'm a sore loser who only 'speaks up' after predicted grade is out.

but tell me, if i speak up during our fyp period, wouldn't it be digging out things to start a conflict within ourselves?

i don't know. i don't wanna seek what sort of 'justice' for the grades. there's no more point up to this point.

but, its like adding insults to my injuries.

hopefully actual will be better than predicted because i don't want that grade to spoil my alr spoilt transcript for a yr 1 module thanks to an arsehole.

2009 is just the beginning but all these things already suffocate me so much that it seems like a really long and sad year to go on.

i hope it won't get any worst.