yesterday night was emotional. no not because of the stupid bf (speaking of which, booked out last night but since i'm not there to be with him, so its still okok la.) but because of the shitty things i've gone through for the past 2 months.

and its a bloody new year. sigh.

somehow, i know this flaw of mine.

i cannot afford to fall from the highest peak of where i'm standing because i know i cannot take the consequences of the fall.

and no matter at which point i am, i just cannot afford to fall at all.

in short, i think i am too proud and too loser.

this is me, the me that i realised last night.

speaking of all these, tears seems to whelm up. &^&$%^$#^%(*(*&*(^*% i am on the edge of the peak of falling. and the final fyp result will determine my stay or fall from the peak.

i know this sounds loserish but WHAT YOU EXPECT ME TO DO? EVERYONE GOT THEIR OWN CHARACTERISTICS AND FLAWS ONE WHAT.

anyway, really hope next friday my stupid oil farm can make it to club. CANNOT WAIT TO CLUB ALR KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. then i will be happier and i can afford to get drunk and wasted since the bf will be going.

take advantage of his presence to get wasted and puke on him.

HAHAHAHAH.

ok, say if next friday's clubbing is gonna happen.

k gg back msn t talk t bf who seems almost non exist in front of his msn.