today very tiring but still very happy because not only the girls came, xiao le also came! very happy to see them.

i gave my little speech during the night service and although its full of imperfection due to last minute, i am glad i did went up eventually.

today i didn't felt as upset as the past 2 days anymore. tears also lessen because the period that really breaks the heart was when she collapsed and fainted, throughout the whole process, i was there to see and it was a very cruel way to make me remember how she passed away.

as compared to those who just saw mummy's body in the coffin, the feelings are totally different.

today i also asked eunice to play the piano because i wanted mummy to hear her play the piano during the service. i am happy my piano can be utilised well at this point of time.

but sadden that mummy haven't brought my piano back to singapore, and let me have a chance to continue my piano lessons. but i will continue the lessons.

i am too tired now to blog about the happy/sad things today but i am really happy i have my friends to be with me today throughout the whole afternoon and night.

and i am so happy that joel printed that photo that is now the main photo in front of mummy's coffin as compared to the previous shitty one which aunte still ask me to keep it which i can't wait to throw it away after the funeral.

kk i am going back to talk to wei in msn.

*ps: wei, mummy knows and understand.. don't worry k.