hi mummy,

yesterday was the first night service and did you saw all your good friends from church and all your other outside business friends coming to see you?

joel and uncle hock seng were so sweet. joel printed some photos and even framed them up.


these 2 photos of you and daddy playing the games were so crazy, candid and happy! but now, daddy finds it heart shattering to look at the photos.

but you know what, at least, when we look back at the photos in future, daddy will be smiling, smiling that both of you had been so happy before.

and this photo, thank God, we will be using this photo for your funeral picture instead of the ugly and lousy quality one that the photo studio did for us.

you and daddy excitingly waiting to rush over to the ending point. :)

and this is us during lunch on the 2nd last day.

mummy, do you remember we have this exactly same pose in a photo when i was still a little kid? i know you'll remember because we were looking at the photo together that time. i am glad we could take this last photo this way..

because, i can no longer touch you, hold you and take pictures with me anymore..

uncle hock seng also gave us the dvds on the whole process of what happened to you throughout. i have no preparation to look at them yet because the wounds are too raw for me to recall them back visually.

but it will be a good memory in future.

and, i have great friends who continuously supported me. hui, dils and eliza will be coming over later to see you, the 3 friends that you've known them the most.

and wei is still trying to get his passport done and come over.

mummy, you don't have to worry about me and i know you know that i will be independent enough. but i know smelly is the one you're very worried about but not to worry because God will make a way for us and things will go fine.

i promise i will give smelly whatever he wants as much as i can do it. and will support daddy, let him ease his pain of losing you.

today is the 2nd last night before your burial. i really don't want your body to be buried and never seen again. i want to touch your hands and face. i want to hold your hands like how we always do...

mummy... did you hear me calling you every night when i stand close beside you? can you hear what i said inside myself while looking at you?

i miss you very much.. your days at home is getting shorter.. i'll be losing you physically too. but i know, you're now in a happy place with no more pain and sorrow. and what pastor said yesterday, and God heard your prayer that you didn't want slow suffering death.

you're so cool, so admirable and respectful that i know i will never be like you.

i used to discuss about who do you admire, or 'idolise' the most? most people say about celebrities, famous people but mummy, i told them it was you. because you've been such a capable business woman, carrying all these by yourself, going through all the cancer treatments, being such a good mother, wife, daughter, sibling..

will be going to do your photo and fetch the girls soon.

tonight and tomorrow night, most of your business partners and friends and your old school mates will be coming over. you're so popular you know! i'm so proud to have a mummy like you. you're so great ;D

i miss you mummy.