1 Corinthians 3:9-10 - However as it is written; No eye has seen, No ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him. But God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.

mummy, we all love and miss you. hope you have enjoyed yourself very much up in heaven now with God.

we know whatever happened is because God has made a way. you've left too sudden for all of us to accept.

this morning when i woke up, i realise, you're no longer here to wake me up anymore. each time i close my eyes, i think of you, and the horrible images of how you collapsed, fainted and never woke up saddens and shatters my heart.

no signs no symptoms, you just leave us like this.

it hurts when i look at the photos, when i look through your stuffs, your clothes and the new bag and shopping voucher you wouldn't have the chance to use anymore.

thank you mummy for letting smelly and i be the 2nd generation of christian in this family, thank you for giving us daddy who loves us just as much as how we love God. thank you mummy that at this point of time, we have God to be our pillar and strength.

i used to tell you i am in a dilemma of choosing to work or continue study but now, i know i will continue to study and make you proud though you may not be physically here anymore.

daddy, smelly and i will take care of ourselves, we know that God is with us and will not forsake us.

i used to mock at people who continuously talk and blog about God in their blog but now, i will no longer because i have felt the strength of God, and how God had loved you and how much you have loved and committed as a faithful christian.

mama, in 2 more nights, you will be buried, i wished you will never have to be buried and stay with us forever...

i hope you can see us from the kingdom of God and take care of us. i promise to be a good daughter and no longer the half hearted girl your daughter is.

you haven't seen me graduating and throwing the real graduating hat instead of the diploma cert, you haven't seen smelly and i grow up.. you haven't celebrate his 15th birthday together with us which we planned to.. you haven't been with daddy through retirement and achieve the plans together..



mama.. i miss you very much...