you know recently, not only the army guy is tired with his never ending hateful duties. ever since graduated and working and tuitioning on alternative days, sometimes even both on the same day, its kinda hard to stay energetic throughout the whole day.

every night when i reach home, its at least 10-11pm and by the time i surf the net a bit, do some reading, its already 12+, 1+ am. its so unhealthy.

and its getting into an obvious sign that the army guy looks at least 3 years younger than the current me with that tiring, unhealthy face when in actual fact he is a year older and still got the face to call me 'jie jie'.

long gone were the days when i was in school, with more energy, with more enthusiasm to look forward to our weekly meeting.

life has been pretty tiring and am finding hard to control my temper and mood like it used to be. somehow, when 2 hands starts to stop cooperate, things get pretty mundane.

and to add on some 'fire', when both tired minds come together, trust me, 90% leads to annoyance and fights. this is not a good sign but who should understand who's situations? when both are of the same issue - lack of good resting.

its not easy to be understanding for the other party but i am glad the army boyfriend is considerate and willing to give in most of the times. i know this cannot keep going on because everyone has their own limits.

but seriously, sometimes, i wished for the earlier days when we were still into the earlier stages of dating. very sweet leh. not that its not sweet now la. but the past week had been quite bad for us. in fact, its like the first time.

i guess sometimes in a relationship, there will be a down period. so, let's hope things will get better sooner. (;

and yeah, our monthsary yesterday was pleasant.

i made an ultimate disastrous (sp) bling-ish spammed with gold dust card sealed in an envelope for him and ended up, my bag was filled with all the gold dust which caused my wallet, tissue, diary everything, GOLD DUST! but anyway, ending up, i got a 'nice card ;D' so its worth the mess la.

anyway, we went over funan mall which we walked rounds and rounds. they sure sell lotsa shits man. had pasta mania for lunch.

walked over to marina sq and i got my cartier gold chain bracelet with a cutesy heart! yay, i made him get it for me so i can wear it everyday and think of him! i'm gg t do some engraving on the heart. LOVE MY GOLD CHAIN BRACELET.

went to buy tickets for the dog show. walked over to m.walk and the toilet was NOSTALGIA! the smell, the cubicles. those days when i was working in m.walk. woah. finally revisted cedele! no more craving for their pumpkin soup because its not really that nice anymore.

after movies, back home. and we were so tired, i guess that's one of the rare days i doze off so fast even with smelly beside. damn i was so tired.

happy monthsary honey!


things will get better somehow or rather. wait for the fruits of urm, waiting!

ilmbf bye!