i really need to vent my anger

i am now not pin pointing at anyone but someone just activated my anger again by letting me explain why i was so angry this evening on the way back home.

no one is at fault at this point of time but because i was reminded of the regularity of something happening that i really hate. actually, it has been quite some times, but today it must happen again.

i am actually more upset and frustrated than angry.

one thing i REALLY REALLY HATE about is that, people giving me last minute stunts and also not giving me a definite ans while i wait like a lost person not knowing what to do while waiting for the final ans.

sometimes, even worst. WHITE FUCKING WAITING.

i really hate people this way. moreover, at the point of time when i have to make a decision already, you are still for your fuck sake, pondering whether or not while the other party IS STILL WAITING FOR A FUCKING ANS WHICH MAY END UP NOTHING.

HAIS.

i hope i don't have to face this kind of bullshit that often anymore. i guess i am really very pissed off today is because all the 'gek' that i tolerated over the months are all unleashed today.

I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF THIS!!!! to tolerate something you really hate is a huge torture. not to mention, i had tolerated time and again. i really had enough.

enough to stop being a weakling and always go with the flow. I ALSO HAVE MY OWN MIND AND ANGERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i am feeling better after typing out.

PLEASE HUH, don't gimme last min indecisiveness and stunts anymore. i really had enough hor.

TRY BEING IN MY POSITION FOR JUST 2 MONTHS, AND LET SUCH THINGS HAPPEN 5 TIMES TO YOU CAN ALR.

THEN YOU WILL UNDERSTAND.

the next time this is going to happen again, i am going to be very very very very dulan until my menses are going to delay for 1 year.

ok end of venting. byebye ;)