i don't understand, no one wants to get scolded for no reasons right?

it is either i really don't know or plain stupid which i admit i can be more of the latter, but why do i seems to be the only one deserving and shouldering all the blames and faults only?

its very miserable to get all the cold shoulders and wanting to talk properly but getting rejected. and the most pathetic thing is, i need to talk to that ONLY person about my issues yet i can't because i am being rejected straight.

but then again, i have seems to semi used to swallow all my unhappiness within myself, imma just gonna live with it. after all, this is the life i have. what can i do?

just that, do i have to get all these treatments?

i don't know how long this will be going on. i cannot read people's mind or what they think. i am not superior enough to predict what people are going to do next, what they plan to do.

I CANNOT DO IT WHAT, IF I AM GOD, THEN I CAN LA. BUT I AM NOT. THEN WHY MUST I ALWAYS GET SCOLDED OR BLAMED FOR THIS??

CAN YOU DO IT? CAN YOU PREDICT OR THINK OR WHATEVER OF ANOTHER PERSON?

if not, why should i be the exceptional one to be expected to be able to do so? i am just a human, a stupid or brainless one you might want to add like you may think of me.

i am just a short, fat, stupid and ugly girl who is just yet another human, who is not superior enough to be whatever the world expect me to be.

i may be hot tempered, impatient grumpy or etc etc, but it doesn't mean i am a person without dignity or good points that cannot be appreciated.

you can blame me for everything that i have done wrong but you cannot blame me for things that i cannot reach or is beyond what i am.

i hope one day i will learn to be like people who are more strong willed and hard hearted enough to act lesser like a weakling who seems to be the one always at fault. i don't want to feel this way anymore.