am learning, though you may not see

i've written in a pink sticky note and pasted on the pin board right in front of me.

out of the list, one says, 'learn to just take all the faults though its not yours.'

this is said and written easier than done. each time i see the list of things, i find myself suddenly very stressed up.

especially ME, to swallow my pride is a very hard thing to do. because its ME. but apparently, by doing this, you find peace in lots of things.

i will learn. by writing it down and have it faced in front of me everytime i'm using the study table is quite an efficient method to remind meself.

i know sometimes when things get ugly, i want to fight for my rights. and if you think i am acting like a bitch, you should have seen the past. i dare say i improved a lot on my bad temper.

but still, i will never agree that during a fight, ONLY ONE person is wrong. never. unless the other party is crazy to randomly pick on a stranger.

you tell me, am i entirely on fault? will you ever look back on the words we exchanged and think through?

mummy, my adviser, my role model, my talking partner, no longer here with me anymore. no one will be able to stay with me like how both of us used to be.

i feel like i've lost my way without her. why haven't you gave me preparation for your departure. every night i think of you, praying that you will finally come into my dreams and feel your touches again.

can you see me from above?

i always hate fridays. its home alone + the unhappy thoughts.

and apparently, every friday seems to have bad things to add on.

mummy, i miss you, a lot, as usual.

我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受