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am back in sg and will be gg back jb on monday.

seriously, i feel better in jb and i seems to like better there than back in sg alr. WEIRD ISN'T IT? i mean i used to blabber about jb and shits and how i don't like gg bk jb. but now, i don't feel like coming back sg.

and bk in sg seems to be also the time when i miss mummy the most.

anyway! i've pretty much enjoyed myself back in msia because of the huge variety of cafes around and yesterday night after dinner, ze and i was bored and he decided to drive me out to the cafe he recommended which was super near our hse.

great! and the shopping centre that have lotsa good stuffs @_@@@@@@@@@@@@.

and, you know the famous malaysia pontian wan ton mee that sg has lotsa outlets one? i saw one of the outlet leh!!!! and this morning we went there for breakfast, mmmmm, the taste is just as good as in sg but hor, no free flow mayo. NOT EVEN A SINGLE DROP OF MAYO for us to take lor.

mmmm~

i wish school wouldn't open because i don't feel like gg to school at all. in fact, i don't feel like coming back sg that soon too.

although back in jb, i still have to go back to the office and call those arrogant fuckers from other companies BECAUSE THEY OWE US MONEY LEH. then have the cheeks to be arrogant ah. knn

then i realise hor, i'm not in customer service line so i can be arrogant and rude back. WHY CANNOT? they and i are working in the same 'sector', they rude, i rude, they arrogant, i arrogant back twice.

you owe me money, i still must call you ask you pay. you buay paiseh isit. knn

anyhow, mei mei will most prob come over the company to work and quit her current job. yayness, then she'll be staying at our hse too.

tell me, what's the reasons for me not to love jb more? first, ze came over to stay, now mei mei. ;D love my cousins!

working tomorrow before gg back jb on monday. i miss working although not as much as before because i seems to have lack all the enthusiasms that i used to have for the things i do.

the only motivation why i'm back studying is because mummy wants me to graduate from uni. if only the company doesn't require so much bloody bahasa melayu.

i think God is pretty funny in his arrangements. i never used to wanna work in the company because i'm not interested although i major that in my poly course. but now..... BUT like i say, this bahasa melayu thing.

give me a document with a page full of foreign language, i totally ??????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wtf???

i really needa polish up and improve my bahasa melayu which i've been saying for the longest time that i needa find some sort of language teacher to teach me. its pretty essential eh. especially even though i spend most of my life in sg, i still have to go back very frequently, given the situation now.

and i miss clubbing. but for the whole july, i've gotta work as much as i can since i owe the whole june and bla bla stuffs and of course starting of school. BLEAK.

but now mummy is no longer around, telling daddy these kinda things is almost like, don't know la. anyway, sooner or later, i gotta have my own life but it takes time since everything is still quite bla.

i've pretty much accept the fact on death because everyone gotta die one day, its either sooner or later. but its the absence of mummy that upsets me occasionally. sometimes, the feeling just gushes up.

the only purpose for human to be on earth is to wait for death but some people, they know how to enjoy their life before death but some people, example, me, are people who don't know how to enjoy properly, or probably, i'm just a boring person.

but whatever it is, the only thing in life now is to do whatever i am responsible to do so and then die and to reconcile with mummy. i really cannot wait for this day to come because i know after death, i can get to see mummy again.

i don't think this is a very negative thought because we all know that we've gotta die anyway. just that, i can't wait for the day when i really die. though on earth, die is a sad thing but to us, death is when we meet God and to his kingdom.

;D waiting for my turn to return to God's side.

ok bye