shall we see?

shall we see what will happen tomorrow? i mean its not because its aprils fool. i am hoping for something positive. and i hope its not gonna be disappointing. actually, i'm prepared for the worst which i have been doing this till i am so get used to it and am quite immune already. however, i just hope there will be something nice and happy out of this pile of immuned emotions you see.

who am i to say or to blame? i am not pin pointing or picking up faults but at least, what i can do for you is to learn to be immune and close one eyes to many of the many many things that i used to bother so much. you see, time proves it all. i have starting to be so numb and immune with all these that if we're to compare side by side, i may be as comparable as yours or even worst.

not that i like this way but what can i do? time moulds a person's habits, behaviours and characteristics. this is what i know best because, you can practically see your reflection from the current me.

in actual fact, i don't like the way how i am starting to feel immune and ignorant because it somehow shows i am becoming indifferent and starting to drift apart from the initial starting point. its not healthy at all. but do you know? from the start, one party is practically that way but now, to add salt to injuries, both parties are acting this way.

if i would to have the chance, i will turn back time and make sure that i will let down my pride and paiseh-ness to tell you everything instead of bottling them up and swallow all them all to myself.

but we know, how is that possible to turn back time?

all i want now is that, to be immuned and ignorant, at the same time to not make things drift from the initial point.

do you actually know, simple actions can actually change a lot of major things? but sometimes, because of 'laziness', 'cannot be bothered', many of these opportunities for positive changes are lost. will you ever understand this?

it takes 2 hands to clap, seriously it does.

no matter how much effort 1 party put in or tries, yet the other doesn't do much, nothing will ever change.

this is a random outburst thought.