sigh

i've been pretty tired these few days after coming back from the holidays. ok i think i'm practically in holidays everyday after grad despite working.

digressing aside, i am feeling these few days. and i am so tired to do much productive stuffs. i did a bit more of my DIY bear and i am pretty dulan with some of the stupid cuttings of the small items. i gave up and discontinued doing for the moment because i am dulan + frustrated + tired.

and i get headaches and giddiness much more often now. i was complaining of giddiness after a heavy lunch just now. and it was damn annoying. its either i ate too much or i don't know what.

and the headache starts all the way from afternoon till now.

its either i have been giving myself too much unhappiness or what. oh, i feel like crying now. must be the self inflicted unhappiness.

i have come to a point of acceptance and adapting what i never used to. i guess this will make me happier although not much diff.

and i have planned for myself that if i am not going to further studies, cases like if school doesnt want me, i will find a full time job and just work.

i am not ambitious so i don't know what else i want more. study, work, whatever.

i think this post is just rambling random nonsense. i just need to rant.

bla.